Wednesday, May 11, 2005

What makes up a happy camper: photo by michael

Posted by: kimthanh

H:uddled in the tent, cozy as can be
A:lways swatting at the mosquitos
P:acking the truck to the very brim
P:laying paddle ball while the waves of the lake kiss the shore
Y:acking and yacking beside the crackling campfire

C:atching the rays of morning through the pine trees
A:lways having to hike to the bathrooms
M:emories made sweeter with one's sweetheart and/or friends
P:icking out the various constellations in a clear, mountainous sky
E:choes of times gone by and the joy that was had
R:ejuvinating one's soul from the rat race of life
S:imple things in life bring the greatest appreciation and admiration

I:ce cold drinks to sip on while laying about on the ol' beach
N:o phone calls to make, take or ignore

T:ake the time to truly enjoy your surroundings
A:pply sunscreen where needed
H:op rock to rock while exploring the lake shore
O:nly the stressed need apply for the Happy Camper position
E:xpectations are not included in this vacation package

We Love Camping: photo by kim

Posted by: kimthanh

Boy, oh boy do we ever love camping!! That's one of the biggest highlights for our summers. Since we got married in the month of June, we try to escape the week before our anniversary or the week after. We can never spend enough time camping. I think we need to start taking two week camping trips. Just to make it worthwhile after all that we have to haul up, unpack and then pack back up. A week just doesn't cut it.

Luckily both Michael and I were in Scouts, boys and girls respectively. Of course, I really wanted to join the boys not the girls but they wouldn't allow that when i was growing up. I had to stick with the girls. Bummer.
So, we both know how to fix a great camp fire, we both know how to deal with the outdoor elements, we both know not to run if there is a snake in the path, and we both know how to put up a real tent, not just a pup or aka a lean to.

The smell of a campfire is powerful, invigorating, lively, enveloping, and there is just nothing quite like it. Unless you are camping literally on the beach which is a blast to do. Between the camp fire and the smell of the ocean. Whoa nelly!

Michael and I have differences when it comes to vacationing. I am the type to go, go, go and let's explore everything. Michael is the let's relax, read a book, take a nap and then let's go to the beach, relax, take a nap, etc. So it's been funny through the years finding the balance of relaxing, playing, exploring and enjoying our time away. But with my health stuff, I'm beginning to creep into the Michael style of vacationing. It's not so bad, it's just different. But its good too.

Michael is definitely my camping buddy and I wouldn't want anyone else. He's the best camper. And we always have so much fun together.

We are definitely a pair of HAPPY CAMPERS! Woohoo!

The time to escape is now!

Old Barn : photo/poem by kim

Posted by: kimthanh

This barn has such great character. Unfortunately, I was not able to get up close and personal to it. You see, it is in the middle of a housing development. Surrounded on three sides. The fourth side is their back pasture where they still keep cows. These cows are just on the other side of the fence, of my sister-in-law's new home.

I'm glad for them and their new house, I'm sad for the people who own the land with the barn. I hope they never sell their lot. It adds such character to the new urbanism that has invaded this place. What used to be a tranquil, country road, with country folk and country hearts.

I find such joy in the simple things of life. Finding a barn in the middle of suburbia is sad and yet quite ironic.

To coexist is to be willing to find a middle ground where one can enjoy the aroma of manure and green, green grass and the sounds of clanking hammers, as new homes are built up in no time. What a sad state of affairs. But it was eventually going to happen...but why my time?

How selfish of me to think such ways but that's because I'm a purist and a lover of the outdoors. And not with back to back housing developments.

So when I visit in Fresno, I will hopefully be able to enjoy the two clashing of the worlds for sometime to come. Hopefully the greedy will not push out or out buy the last patch of true green space, in the land of greater concrete.

Ode to my Abode:

Ode to my Abode
I see you green still today
I see you, my cows, chewing away

Ode to my Abode
The barbedwire fence is to keep the cows in
The rooster brings noisy life on the farm
And the simple buttercups sprinkled hither and tither
await for my grandchildren
picking and smelling and tesing who really likes butter more

Ode to my Abode
The ol' barn is rickety but firm
It's metal roofing aged with rain and weather
The stalls within are for warmth and cool spots
as the animals lay about

Ode to my Abode
The neighbors on the right are older
The neighbors on the left are younger
The neighbors in front have yet to move in
But still my abode is forever my home.

Ode to my Abode
May she remain until the day I die
May the greedy men kneel in repentance
May the heritage of my children and grandchildren
forever remain despite the surrounding of suburbia.

Ode to my Abode
The grass remains green on this side
The grass has been replaced with concreteon the
on the other side of my barbedwired fence
and my our cows always know where to turn to home
Where the grass will always be greener

Ode to my Abode
Forever for my kin
Akin to the ol' days
Where the future remained
no different than the past.

Ode to my Abode

Allowing Kids to be Kids: photo by kim

Posted by: kimthanh

As I've mentioned in a previous post, i am truly blessed to have so many nieces and nephews who call me aunt. Some of these kids are those whose parents I am extremely close with. Oh what fun it is for me to have this kind of relationship.

I know many granparents often say they wish they could have always been grandparents because you love 'em, spoil 'em and then hand them back. My role is also very much that way. Although I'd rather not give them back but keep them for myself. But unfortunately, parents want their kids back. I don't get it.

But one role I do appreciate that my friends and families allow me is to get to love and play with them as I wish. I'd say I'm a great influence in many aspects. First off, I know boundaries, I know how to speak with them firmly, I know how to discipline with love, and I know definitely how to have a wild and fun time!

There is always laughter, more noise and more silliness brought out in those kids when I'm around then under normal circumstances. Most of my friends are amazed and thankful for the peace and quiet when I leave. But I say, all the more for me next time! I haven't forgotten to include my husband, Michael, because he is just about as silly as I am when it comes to the kids, I guess he is just a wee bit more respectful of the parents than I perhapas am. I don't worry about getting into trouble. hehe!

I must say, when it comes to kids and restaurants, I pretty much try to obey the behavior rule, but once in awhile you just have to let kids be kids and watch the creativity unfold. Such as this photo. J and S were simply enjoying their time together and then I brought out the birthday party goodies, and then the creativity began. I was so proud of them!

I was laughing my head off at them, and I noted that others in the restaurant were too. It was a good thing the folks were very patient and enjoying the creativity and laughter of these kids. Of course, so was I.

The mom's were just smiling at me and wondering how it got that far. But I took full credit and the blame. I've always felt that life is way too short to not let the fun just happen and particularly now, as I am getting older, I especially believe that. In this day and age, kids are growing up way too fast as it is and responsible for far too much, and going, going far too much that they just don't have enough time to play, play out those things that make up being a child and the creativity that comes with their developing minds and spirits.

I am proud to be the one that can bring those things out in them and encourage it. I love every child that comes through my life, whether a sibling's, a friend's or just one i observe playing, in trying to figure out their world around them. What a joy it is to watch, observe, and breathe in. Children are the future on every continent, in every city, in every part of the word.

I pray that every child in this world could know the love, the freedom, the security and the endless possibilities for their lives. And that despite physical, spiritual or political lines holding them back, that they would be able to find the strength within to break through those barriers and become who they were made to be, in all of their glory. And if they are unable to find the strenght or the power within, that perhaps someone would be willing to give them a hand up and a better life.

It took one man's heart, one families courage to say yes, to adopt me and to take risks in loving, taking care of me, and taking a chance on me so that I could become the person I was/am made to be. It wasn't always easy but it could have been a hell of a lot worse for me if they had not come to my rescue. For this I am truly grateful.

If you are willing to love, adopt or care for a child of any age, I pray that you would greatly consider it and follow your heart.

Your life and the child's life will ever be so much richer in all respects.

Shalom,

Kim

Being Harassed by my Nephews: photo by Michael

Posted by: kimthanh

This is just a sampling of what happens to me when it comes to my nieces and nephews. Now that they are all bigger and taller than me, I don't have much over them. But I sure love them immensely!!!

To my nieces and nephews:

You allow the kid to come out in me
You accept me for my siliness and wackiness
Though i am and will always be smaller and shorter than any of you,
You still allow me to feel big, strong and protective of you

Your laughter is loud, your humor is bad but funny
Zach, you're the youngest but you still keep up pretty well with the
older ones. Your personality carries you in all things

Drewskie, Brian, Maggie(too!), Grant Fuj, Sambo, Grant T., Sister-Roo, Sammie, and Zach - I love each and every one of you with all of me and always will. I know I haven't always been there for all the important things in your lives, but please know I always have you in my heart and my love overflows to each of you abundantly.

Thank you for allowing me to not act my age with you, for sharing your thoughts, your dreams, and your laughter.

I can't wait to see each of you grow up to be amazing people who do amazing things, whatever that maybe. Regardless, I will always be proud of each of you no matter and love you no matter where we go and are in life.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for loving me, your short, asian and silly aunt Kim.

With all of my love to each and every one of you -

Love and Shalom,

Your FAVORITE aunt kim

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Those you may meet along the way: photo by kim

Posted by: kimthanh

I love this photo. This speaks to me of a great afternoon with some new friends in Oregon.

I was exhausted from our time with D and C but I didn't want to be rude and fall asleep while the rest of them visited.

Of course, as you can see, there is a cutie named D. He is sooo adorable, cute, rambunctious, very smart, very precocious and absolutely funny. As you can see, I enjoyed him. Well, while everyone else was getting to know one another more, I was having a blast keeping up with D. What a hoot!

But it wasn't just being with D. but with everyone. It was hearing stories, hearing of how P's family could help D and C while in Malawi, as P's family is from there and has great connections. But it was also great to hear from K and K about their time as Peace Corp members in Malawi and how it was returning to the states after their stint.

We spent a great deal of the afternoon with them and D and C have since returned just before they headed off to Malawi this last Wednesday, May 4th.

I look forward to a return trip to Oregon on many levels and look forward to spending more time, and getting better acquainted with the gang. It enriched my life.

If you get a chance, take a trip to Oregon and check it out. There is so much to do, the people so friendly and the weather is ideal for me and Michael.

Shalom,

Kim

Our Limits Transgressed: photo by kim

Posted by: kimthanh

Henry David Thoreau

We need the tonic of wildness, to wade sometimes in marshes where the bittern and the meadow-hen lurk, and hear the booming of the snipe; to smell the whispering sedge where only the wilder and more solitary fowl builds her nest, and the mink crawls with its belly close to the ground. We can never have enough of nature. We must be refreshed by the sight of inexhaustible vigor, vast and titanic features, the sea-coast with its wrecks, the wilderness with its living and its decaying trees, the thunder cloud, and the rain which lasts weeks and produces freshets. We need to witness our own limits transgressed, and some life pasturing freely where we never wander.
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Monday, April 25, 2005

O' How I Weep..poetry by kim

O’ How I Weep...

O’ how I weep for the children as this world continues twirling on its apex.
Why are they the first to lose out?

I weep for the lost innocence of children and their need to grow up so quickly.
Why aren’t they playing more?
Why are they being cared for by a system that underpays and overcrowds the very people whose
hands these lives are in the care of?
Why must they come home to an empty house?
Why oh why is so much demanded of them so soon and so quickly by society, parents, schools?

O’ how I weep for the children from all over the world.
slavery, children having children, living in great poverty, living without parents, living with aging,
grandparents, being unwanted and unclaimed in a world where they supposably are the future.

I weep for the world as it continues to prove beyond comprehension, it’s ultimate displays of studidity -
through power hungary men, control freaks, war, aids, cancer, hunger, slavery,
injustice, famine, homelessness, substance abuse, violence, greed, ignorance,
alzheimer, dementia, patriarchal dominance

I weep for you and for me and those I don’t know.

O’ how I weep...it’s difficult to understand and as to why the tears come on suddenly and often.
my tears may trickle, may pour forth, may salt the earth but the one thing they don’t do is stop.

O’ how I weep for those who can’t weep.
their tears are dried up,
their lives are too difficult to comprehend,
there isn’t time for tears when you’re struggling to survive.

O’ how I weep...

Perhpas one day there will be no mre tears, no more crying and no more pain in this world.

O’ how I look toward such sweetness and with tears of joy.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Returning to the roots of my past, present and future

2005 has been an amazing year already. First off, my health issues are very slowly beginning to find their root causes; In the same arena, I'm feeling better than I was a year ago; New opportunties have surfaced that ignited an excitement in the very deepest part of me; I've been blessed to renew some old relationships; And I have been able to find an amazing network of other Vietnamese who were adopted, and met one in Portland when we visited two weeks ago. Since then I have been in email conversations with others like myself, and even from the same orphanage. It's been an pretty incredible high for me.

VAN - Vietnamese Adoptees Network was established by five adoptees who had similar and not so similar experiences in their lives that they wanted to reach out to others like themselves, and allow for each of us to share our own unique stories, see the very common thread we all have running through each one of us, and have a community to support the questions, the experiences, the hurts, the past, the joys and our futures as Vietnamese Adoptees.

http://van-online.org/ •and• http://motherlandtour.com/

However, in reading stories and listening to others chat about their lives, it brings a great sadness to me. We all know that we are suppose to feel blessed, lucky, fortunate, etc about having been adopted, but many of those in my new new community did not fair as well as I did. There have been stories of incredible abuse by parents, immediate family members, racism within the family and society, neglect, and so much more. But for those this new network is a true blessing, as they are able to express themselves, ask the hard questions and feel supported by what they are experiencing and feeling, that I hope every one of them will pull through with new and healthier views of themselves, their families and this society.

Please take a look at the VAN site as well as the other links that are within the site. You may just learn something new today or experience something you never would have expected.

I have so many people to thank for my adopted life and the journey I continue to explore. My parents, my siblings, my husband, Michael, my in-laws, my closests friends, my spiritual communty in Marin County, California, and those who have always loved and supported me regardless. I say, THANK YOU from the deepest part of my soul. I am just beginning to feel Vietnamese after all of these years. What a great feeling!

PLEASE, if you know of anyone or you, yourself are an adoptee, please write me or send them my way or to the VAN network site. I personally would love to meet those of you who are out there.

Shalom,

Kim

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Oh my, she's saying swear words

Today has been very trying. I'm just not sure what my heart is feeling nor how to truly express it in all of its fullness. The mind wanders to and fro wondering what to think next. The heart is heavy and unwanting of it's present condition. The eyes tearless though on the verge at any given moment. The thoughts swirling, twirling, whirling round about with no where to really land. Life feels like a tumbleweed. Rough around the edges, spiked in all directions, weightless, and easily thrown from here to there to who knows where. The lone warrior in a mass of desert land. I was able to swear out loud, in writing, in my mind, in my heart and way deep down where it echoes in silence. Sometimes one needs a good swearing session. Like a good cry. I swore to no end using words that I detest yet gleemed at the sound of their every syllable. It felt good. Like jumping into Lake Tahoe in May. Refreshing. What the F***! What the H***! What a Sh**** crying shame! Why is it when these words are said in a foreign tongue, they just don't sound so harsh nor like swear words? I will admit, Sh** is my favorite and only swear word used when we're about to hit the car in front of us, or when a loud and unsuspecting sound shakes the warm liquid from my bladder. H*** really doesn't seem very offensive to me, but then maybe it makes those religious ones feel closer to that destination than they are desiring. F*** is definitely a crappy word and I only use it in extreme measures - when I've had a trying day and I don't know what other words fit to describe it. To H*** with today. There is always tomorrow. Oh, Crap!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Male Friendships

Posted by: kimthanh

First off, I love my husband. Secondly, I appreciate the fact that my husband deals well with my being able to be friends with other men. Since I was young, I had always been able to relate better to boys, guys, and men. Perhaps some of that had to do with my being a tomboy or who knows what. Regardless, there are so many men in my life that I adore as a friends and/or brothers. This photo is one such person that I adore. His spirit is soft spoken, he's authentic and has a very wry sense of humor. But he is also very vulnerable, caring and very thoughtful. It's funny, because when I first met him, he actually didn't take to me too well. I was too huggy of a person, to open and I'm not sure what else, but I know he used to literally run away from me. At first, I thought it was a joke, but then very soon realized he was not playing a game. But over time and getting together in a group of friends, our relationship grew. He is just so funny, has a great smile and definitely one of those friends where if you don't see each other for a while or longer, we always return to where we left off. I so appreciate that and feel very fortunate that my husband, Michael, and I have a great deal of friendships that are that way. This friend's life inspires me though I can not put it into words. This friend has reached deep inside himself to be vulnerable, weak yet strong too, and yet a great example of how I wish some men would allow themselves to be, not always feel they need to be macho or just strong.

B. you're the greatest. Thanks for your friendship all these years. Look forward to your visit with us soon.


Love and Shalom,

Kim

Oh, that cute baby face! photo by kim

Posted by: kimthanh

Oh, Michael and I LOVE being uncle and aunts to so many nieces and nephews within our own families. And we so enjoy and love being called uncle and aunt to so many of our friend's kids. I feel so blessed, truly since we have not been able to have our own kids so far. I am such a kid lover and such a kid myself that I so enjoy their company, their laughter, their innocence, their amazing questions and memories of stories, and of course that baby smell!!! That itself is the closest thing to heaven for me.

Kids just keep you young, on your toes and rolling on the floor from laughter. Though most of my nieces and nephews are no longer babies, infants, toddlers, I still greatly enjoy them and love to see the look on their faces when I say something they are not expecting from their 37 year old aunt, as well as enjoy seeing how each of them is becoming their own being. There are definitely a few surprises in how they are growing up. I hope never to lose connection with any of them and always be there for them in some way that will be encouraging and/or supportive. They truly are the love of my life aside from my husband. I always look forward to my time with them. That's why I sit at the kids table with them. Adults are boring and kids, well they are just kids, in all their wonderful, wacky and nonsensical ways.

So, with each new child born into my life via my own siblings or my friends, I will always love, adore and enjoy their beautiful presence in my life. God has blessed me with the love of kids. That's why I'm still a kid. Woohoo!!!

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

The words of Maya Angelou

I have come to greatly love this poem since it first was published in 1993. One cannot help but to listen to Maya when she has spoken one of her poems, particularly this one. Her diction is beautiful, her voice evoking, and her dream for humanity prevalent and worthy.

On the Pulse of Morning•

(also referred to as The Rock Cries Out To Us Today)•

A Rock, A River, A Tree•
Hosts to species long since departed,•
Mark the mastodon.•
The dinosaur, who left dry tokens•
Of their sojourn here•
On our planet floor,•
Any broad alarm of their of their hastening doom•
Is lost in the gloom of dust and ages.•
But today, the Rock cries out to us, clearly, forcefully,•
Come, you may stand upon my•
Back and face your distant destiny,•
But seek no haven in my shadow.•
I will give you no hiding place down here.•
You, created only a little lower than•
The angels, have crouched too long in•
The bruising darkness,•
Have lain too long•
Face down in ignorance.•
Your mouths spelling words•
Armed for slaughter.•
The rock cries out today, you may stand on me,•
But do not hide your face.•
Across the wall of the world,•
A river sings a beautiful song,•
Come rest here by my side.•
Each of you a bordered country,•
Delicate and strangely made proud,•
Yet thrusting perpetually under siege.•
Your armed struggles for profit•
Have left collars of waste upon•
My shore, currents of debris upon my breast.•
Yet, today I call you to my riverside,•
If you will study war no more.•
Come, clad in peace and I will sing the songs•
The Creator gave to me when I•
And the tree and stone were one.•
Before cynicism was a bloody sear across your brow•
And when you yet knew you still knew nothing.•
The river sings and sings on.•
There is a true yearning to respond to•
The singing river and the wise rock.•
So say the Asian, the Hispanic, the Jew,•
The African and Native American, the Sioux,•
The Catholic, the Muslim, the French, the Greek,•
The Irish, the Rabbi, the Priest, the Sheikh,•
The Gay, the Straight, the Preacher,•
The privileged, the homeless, the teacher.•
They hear. They all hear•
The speaking of the tree.•
Today, the first and last of every tree•
Speaks to humankind. Come to me, here beside the river.•
Plant yourself beside me, here beside the river.•
Each of you, descendant of some passed on•
Traveller, has been paid for.•
You, who gave me my first name,•
You Pawnee, Apache and Seneca,•
You Cherokee Nation, who rested with me,•
Then forced on bloody feet,•
Left me to the employment of other seekers--•
Desperate for gain, starving for gold.•
You, the Turk, the Swede, the German, the Scot...•
You the Ashanti, the Yoruba, the Kru,•
Bought, sold, stolen, arriving on a nightmare•
Praying for a dream.•
Here, root yourselves beside me.•
I am the tree planted by the river,•
Which will not be moved.•
I, the rock, I the river, I the tree•
I am yours--your passages have been paid.•
Lift up your faces, you have a piercing need•
For this bright morning dawning for you.•
History, despite its wrenching pain,•
Cannot be unlived, and if faced with courage,•
Need not be lived again.•
Lift up your eyes upon•
The day breaking for you.•
Give birth again•
To the dream.•
Women, children, men,•
Take it into the palms of your hands.•
Mold it into the shape of your most•
Private need. Sculpt it into•
The image of your most public self.•
Lift up your hearts.•
Each new hour holds new chances•
For new beginnings.•
Do not be wedded forever•
To fear, yoked eternally•
To brutishness.•
The horizon leans forward,•
Offering you space to place new steps of change.•
Here, on the pulse of this fine day•
You may have the courage•
To look up and out upon me,•
The rock, the river, the tree, your country.•
No less to Midas than the mendicant.•
No less to you now than the mastodon then.•
Here on the pulse of this new day•
You may have the grace to look up and out•
And into your sister's eyes,•
Into your brother's face, your country•
And say simply•
Very simply•
With hope•
Good morning.•


by Maya Angelou

Are we always what we seem to others?

I wonder how many of us really are what we seem by others. I truly wish we could completely and utterly be ourselves, one hundred percent of the time. I know that I have strived to be just myself, but there seems to be those inner voices, those inner debates about ones worth, those heart-wrenching words others have called us by, society's expectations of our gender roles, family and friend's off the cuff remarks or statements, something a teacher wrote on a report card, not feeling supported by your employer, a comment an instructor made about your work, not feeling supported or loved by those in your life, those things we did as kids that keep coming up in conversation, and our own critical thinking of ourselves somehow creep out from within to help us mask the makeup of who we are. All because well...we're human. Duh. I know that there have been many times where I just felt I could not show the weaknesses of who I am. Who wants to. We only want to be thought of as good, decent people. But can we ever truly be? Oh, I would give anything to say that I am exactly the person and exude the nice things that people may say about me. Or the highly spiritual person others may look at me to be. But...may the truth be told and laid out so others can see that I too am just as human as the next person. But I have found that as the years are speeding by, that I no longer need or even desire to hide who I really am. Life is tough enough without having to pretend that we are something we aren't. And may I say there has been great freedom in that admission. So, if you catch me on a bad day, simply say, "thanks for just being you".

I have lied, I have stolen, I have been controlling, I have been a perfectionist, I have expected from others the same as I would have done, I have been a disappointment, I have not kept promises made, I have cut others off in traffick, I have argued with a sales clerk, I have screamed out the window to the person who stole my parking space, I have gossiped, I have failed in many areas, I have wanted what others have, I have rolled my eyes, I have kept an extremely dirty house, I have turned my eyes away from the homeless, I have not been a good doctor's patient, I have desired to not to live, I have given into people out of guilt, I have been rude, I have been drunk once, I have tried marijuana once, I have hidden dirty clothes thrown in a closet before company arrived, I have had a fender bender, I have intentionally hurt someone, I have had to apologize to many, I have denied others of my love, I have denied others of my time, I have denied others of my money, I have denied others of who I really am inside. And at this point in my life, all of 37 years, I have found that I really am not so bad. For I have sought forgiveness, received freedom and gained a greater sense of who I've been, and who I am becoming.

Many have shared very wonderful, warm, endearing and spiritual adjectives to who they think I am. I'm not saying that they may or may not be true, but if only I could maintain not so much the image, but know that I am those things positively stated and more. That when push comes to shove that I am more able to let things roll off my back more often, try not to take things so seriously or so personally, evaluate the words of others before reacting. It's not that there aren't improvements that I can make within myself. We can often fool ourselves in thinking we are being real, we are being what jesus, budha, muhammad, parents, spouses, friends asks of us, and we are holding up to the standard of a very contradictory society, and that we are being who we think others want us to be. No more! It's time to learn to be you, me, ourselves. I know there are some of you who truly are just yourselves, but for those of us who struggle in this area, we need to get over ourselves and move on from here. Simply be you, me, us, with no strings, guilt or self-depracating notions attached. Enjoy this new found freedom.•

"Touched by An Angel"•

We, unaccustomed to courage•
exiles from delight•
live coiled in shells of loneliness•
until love leaves its high holy temple•
and comes into our sight•
to liberate us into life.•

Love arrives•
and in its train come ecstasies•
old memories of pleasure•
ancient histories of pain.•
Yet if we are bold,•
love strikes away the chains of fear•
from our souls.•

We are weaned from our timidity•
In the flush of love's light•
we dare be brave•
And suddenly we see•
that love costs all we are•
and will ever be.•
Yet it is only love•
which sets us free."•

by Maya Angelou

The Trinity: photo by michael

Posted by: kimthanh

This was a very interesting find, in an old, original Austrian farmhouse. This was hanging in the wall of the home in its original frame and position. This painting of the Trinity is thought to be what the real Trinity appears. This painting dates from 1860. It's condition appeared to be in mint condition.
If you have seen such a painting or image as such, please let us know. It would be interesting to know.

The talking wind: poetry by kim

Speak to me of my life•
Make it so I can understand•
Whisper the love that has embraced me•
Whisper the kindness of this one's sweetness•

Speak to me of my life•
Make it plain for me to see•
Show me visually where I have done wrong•
Show me visually how I may make it right•

Speak to me of my life•
Make it so that I can hear•
Sing to me the grace that I may grasp•
Sing to me the grace that I need and must extend•

Speak to me of my life•
Make it difficult or make it easy•

Speak to me of my life•
Make it so that I will always show love in the most possible ways•

Speak to me of my life•
Make me embrace the one that I am and grow in understanding to the one I will become•

Oh, you the spirit that takes shape as the wind•
Blow through this complicated being and cleanse me within•

Oh, you the spirit that takes shape as the wind•
Come sweep your loving and feather-soft hands across my furrowed brow•
Soften the wrinkles that show of my concerns in life•

Come swish your gentle body through this fragment of a figure so that it may be ready•
Ready to take in the love of others, the pain of others, tears of children, the loss of memory of old age, the broken hearted, the homeless wanderer, the rapist, the victim, the abandoned, the one in the darkness of their soul•

Blow through me so that I am no longer entrapped by my selfishness •
Blow me out so that I too may become like the spirit who takes shape as the wind •
So that I may bring peace to others, extend grace to others, to endure and love others, to help others in their very moment of need and most of all make time for others at all possible moments•

How quickly life can leave us and sometimes without a moment to say goodbye•
Oh, spirit that takes shape as the wind•
Please speak for me when I am gone so others will know I have loved, I have enjoyed, I have laughed, I have thought of them•

Oh, spirit you are marvelous in all your ways: through the wind, through my dreams, through my words, through my eyes, through my heart and most of all through my life•

Oh, spirit you have given me a wonderful and marvelous life•
I shall cherish it to the end•

Oh, spirit draw near and close to Michael always•
I whisper to him of my love in moments of despair, in moments we shared•
But when my time has come I know he will be in great pain•

Oh, spirit speak to his heart, his mind and comfort him of my love for him, forever more•
Blow your spirit through him of who we were together and what he will become•
I know you make me arise so that others will know that I have lived and loved in and through them•

Shalom,

Kim

Seinfeld wannabes: photo by jim

Posted by: kimthanh

Speaking of my travels, this experience and now the photo just gave me great joy as I am a huge fan of Seinfeld, as I'm sure many of you are as well. When I asked our friend Jim if he'd take us to the Seinfeld restaurant, I had no idea we'd be walking a thousand miles of New York pavement to get there. But it sure was worth it!!! As many of you know, this corner is used in the show. They actual location inside of the restaurant was never used. But of course, as Seinfeld fans you would already know this. It was still a kick in the pants to see it despite the August New York humidty.

Somewhat of a world traveler: photo by kim

Posted by: kimthanh

I have been blessed beyond words in my life. Between having been adopted, having grownup in a large family, having been asked to marry an amazing and talented man, and having been able to travel beyond California.

Thanks to my parents, Michael's family, one of Michael's old employers and finally a an anonymous person, I have been fortunate enough to see a bit of the world. My parents have taken me to Washington, Oregon, Nevada, Hawaii, Austria, Italy, Germany, Switzerland, and finally Paris, France. I was able to travel with Michael to New Jersey (his 20th high school reunion) and then on to New York to visit our close friend and his old college roommate. Then with Michael's family I've been able to experience Virginia and the backwoods towns of Mississippi. Michael's old employer treated me to Vancouver, BC so that I could accompany him while he was on doing a press check there. Then anonymous treated us to a cruise to Cabo San Lucas, Mazatlan and Puerta Vallarta. Oh what fun I've had seeing a smidgeon of the world.

I feel extremely fortunate to have visited all of those places, experienced the various cultures, the terrain, the people, the customs, the amazing food, and the sights and sounds. I could never say thank you enough to all of those who have made it happen. And in keeping up with my taste for travel, foods, and cultures, I needed to photograph what I had experienced. The first time I went to Europe with my parents, I think I was too excited that I was going that I didn't think to take many photos. And I'm sure at that time in my life, they probably would not have turned out very well anyway. It's only been in the past five years that I finally have come to where I am now. And that isn't saying a whole lot. I have so much more room to grow and understand when it comes to photography. But for now I have a good foundation.

But fortunately I was able to return to Europe years later and capture somethings that I had seen and not seen in my prior trip. I know I can't take the photos with me when I'm gone, but just having the pure joy and reminder of those experiences is enough to sustain me in the here and now.

This photo is of Venice, Italy for those who may not have had the chance to travel.

I hope one day you are able to do a little or a lot of traveling before you leave this beautiful and rich world.

Shalom,

Kim

Canoe on Lester Beach: photo by michael

Posted by: kimthanh

I love how my husband, Michael and I have such similar taste when it comes to home decor, most movies, art work, and photography. He has a great eye for photographing subjects as well.

This was taken on Lester Beach, at D.L. Bliss State Park, in Tahoe. As you can see it was a perfect mountainous day.

I just love what his eyes captured and the amount of texture, color and lighting. That's my hubby! What a proud wife I am.

Lil Cowboy-Ponderosa Ranch

Posted by: kimthanh

I always try and ask permission from parents before taking a photo of a child because I want to honor their protective and parental right. But this lil cowboy's parents were too busy with their other kids to ask them. Digital cameras unfortunately have a delay before the clicking of the photo. So I had missed a few great shots of this cutie. But then I found my opportunity, once again, as he was so intent on picking up those rocks, that I was able to take this great shot with him in the foreground, the horses and the old-time firetruck in the background.

Kids are so amazing and beautifully innocent. Why do we have to grow up and become aware of our surroundings and ourselves? Staying innocent would certainly seem to make our lives a little freer.

Innocence is a virtue that only children are able to remind us of where we've strayed.